monday mornings
Getting myself out of bed this morning wasn’t as easy, it wasn’t because I didn’t sleep well, or because I was still tired necessarily. It was definitely the Monday morning dread - I don’t like my job, I do it to pay the bills but it’s not what inspires me. So a case of the Mondays usually hits as I start thinking about the work week ahead. I am never ready for it, the weekend went by too quickly, I didn’t explore activities and get to have as much fun as I wanted; I didn’t relax and recharge enough; I didn’t fill my cup - I just didn’t have enough time (a lie I like to tell myself).
What did get me up and going was the idea of having some extra time, I usually sleep in until I just about have to leave for the office or start working from home. It leaves me little time to mentally prepare for my day and makes Monday all that more difficult, so the extra time was welcoming this morning. I still have no agenda just yet, but just watching the wake up as well - the sky lighting up and the birds chirping away is no doubt all the excitement I can handle on a Monday. I pushed a button to get myself my morning elixir…
I’m not particular about coffee, I think it is more about the habit - the idea that I think I need it to start my day. I realize I probably don’t, but that is an experiment for another time. I just like the convenience of the Nespresso, I push a button and a hot, frothy cup of coffee is procured. Good enough. My eyes start to open and I try to come to life.
I sit in our kitchen nook, stare out the windows and try not to think about the week ahead; the monotonous routine - yet still the unsettling uncertainty about what the demands of work will bring. I focus on a plan, what I can do to break up the day a little. I usually sit and work straight through until I have to pickup my son from school. But perhaps I should get outside for a walk or two today.
I finish my coffee with still at least an hour before I should start work - Mondays I enjoy the comforts of working from home. The sun is high enough now that is glaring through the windows, I take it all in for a moment. The Mondays will keep coming, I have to find reasons to get up because I want to, not because I have to.
today’s highlights: a stuffed animal moose was part of a squirrel’s nest in a neighborhood tree
